Posted 16:54:46
I just remembered watching this movie and loved it, so I thought I would mention it here.

Andrew Davies' Adaptation of Othello (which I first caught on PBS' Masterpiece Theatre).

Posted 15:37:30
Shambhala is finished!@#!@# BREAK OUT THE CRISTAL AND MOET!!!!

salut.

Posted 14:31:48
Damn... bowling was sure tiresome last night. Not just me, but pretty much the whole squad was tired.

The crew did Chrome again thursday night because there was a model search promo going on. We ended up staying on the hiphop floor most of the time and missing out on the model search. I'm guessing it was probably a bunch of ugly girls with banging ass bodies. Nevertheless, we had a great time. Chheng got humped by some drunk ass girl, legs up and all. The rest of us were running around looking to hump -- err.. =D.

Only about 20 more pages to go in Shambhala!! Woo woo!@# The next book I will be reading is definitely The Power of Myth. Along with that, I hope to get the DVD of the actual interview that was conducted on PBS and which was the basis of the book.

I will be eating buffet with my family and my crew tonight. That is the good shit...

Hola and adios. I need to head off to do some spring cleaning.

Posted 18:52:09
My new classes are pretty dope. Both the curriculum and the teachers are bearable -- if not enjoyable. This time I will buy my textbooks; I think things will become a bit easier for me if I do so =).

Hey. How healthy is competition really? Especially when it becomes a duel between friends?

Not very healthy.

There was a stupid survey circulating where the girls around us (my friends) would rate us on looks and personality. Though I did fairly good (haha..), I still found it to be ridiculous. I felt uncomfortable with it because it was involuntary and this is something where a few will not benefit from the results. Only two things would result from this survey: an ego-trip or an infliction on confidence. To avoid both, I tried at best to ignore it. Some may argue that this is a good way to help someone gain a better sense of confidence, but this would be done at the expense of others. There are plenty of other ways to gain confidence besides trying to beat your friends in their looks and personality. For one, you could start appreciating and looking hard at what good there is around you and in you...

Cognitive methods of thinking would allow you not to depend on a win or lose scale, but on focusing on what good you do have and working on what you don't have. I don't find myself to be a winner or loser over anyone, but confidently, I look at myself as a winner of life. Why? Because I am still alive. Life is about being up sometimes and down sometimes. Life is a single entity, with the up and down not split or even intertwined, but rather it is a constant wave you just need to flow with.

Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy it when I have made accomplishments and have won contests. But I focus mainly on what *I* did and not on the lost of others to make myself feel better.

I guess my objection to all of this is because I was born into a very proud family, where an emphasis was made on competitiveness (Asian parents = tragic heroes). Even though, overall, this has made a legion of persistent teens -- it has also caused alot of trouble not worth the effort.

Holla back. Peace.

Posted 21:45:44
Hey, have you ever thought about the balance (or even assimilation) of geek and cool? Is it possible? Well, yes... sort of. I have seen a few cases where it was quite possible -- and where a trend has embarked even on the style and cliches of the "cool geek". The thing is though (because I have never experienced it myself), the assimilation of these two states seem almost impossible. Rather, many have trained quite well in switching modes, sometimes even as fast as the speed of light. But pure and real assimilation? I think not. So the next time you think you have met a "cool geek", they are only sometimes cool and sometimes geek. Aight?

My whole life has been a training onto that. I realized this awhile ago, but never discussed it that much because I'm constantly reiterating the issue in my head and revising as well. I'm not the brightest apple of the bunch, nevertheless, I still consider myself to be one of the brighter ones. I'm not a international superstar, but I kick ass locally =). Remember though, this is not in blend. I am only quick switching (which is still somewhat buggy anyway). The best example of this are film stars...

I have this obsession with film stars who graduated from ivy league school name here university cum laude, was a BLAH-BLAH fellow with BLAH-BLAH-II fellowship, and is now some hot sexy movie star making millions. Not only are they beautiful, cool, chique, and suave -- their intelligence even makes for much more admiration. Most of them turn to philantropy onwards and get their names forever cycled in every year's print of Encyclodpedia Brittanica. At a glance, it seems that they have perfected the assimilation and are pretty much genuine cool geeks. But with a closer look at the way things are embodied, you turn to realize that the attempted mixture has gone bad and covered up at some points. They embarked on a gray area that flows with lava and got burned -- bad. Drugs, depression, and the pressure of the spotlight are exposed within their lives. Mostly though, this is the case with ones who have attempted to deplete the geekiness within -- a transfer to pure fast living. So technically, they didn't even fucking balance! They overdosed. When I made that realization, I was pretty fucking sad. It seems that it is impossible to be really cool and really intelligent -- but then I started to break down to individual cases (both of the norm and the glitter). Though not totally 50/50, I had found cases where the cake was split 49/51, 51/49, etc. This made me happy. And I felt like da' shit ( and I still do =D).

OK. The lesson of today's rant. Don't read the shit I write here if you get easily confused and nauseas... and that the perfect cool geek does not exist -- but we are closer than we think. *Yawn* I'm tired, but I'm still going to do my exercises (what a bastard am I).

"e = mc2. I rule bitch." - Einstein

"Me + your sister = Little Me. Look, it is possible to have a smaller result than the values added! Now this is only theory at this point... and I would need live research to prove it..." - Me being an asshole =D.

peace. one love on your baby doves, leather gloves, and illegal drugs.